So, I'm lost. I really don't know what to do. For the extremely few who know, I shut down my FB account. I thought it would help, just getting away from people I know. The few people I have talked to about what I'm going through, they seem to now want me to shut up. At least, that's the impression I'm getting whenever I talk again. I'm told it's not healthy to still be dealing with this, and that I should go and get professional help.
Professional help nearly killed me once. First time I ever attempted suicide was when I was a teenager, and it was all due to a therapist. So, needless to say, I'm never going back to see one ever again.
So, the friends I was talking to, talking just so I could vent, they seem to be getting tired of listening to me, and now I'm stuck, alone, again, with no way to really vent.
I really feel lost.