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Yeah.....
I don't know what to do.  I've been here more times than I can imagine, or care to remember.  The minutes, the hours, they're a prison, a prison filled with torture.  You're on my mind more than I want you to be.  I wish I could forget, but I was never very good at that.  I wonder if you think of me too, or if you're another person who just tosses me aside like a piece of trash.

I don't know what to do.  I go through the day, trying to do fill my time with something, so I don't feel.  I want to talk to friends, but they have their own lives.  Not many people know what happened, or what I'm going through.  I feel empty, worthless.

I don't know what to do.  Songs play in my head, songs that used to bring me joy, but now just invoke solitude, loneliness, sadness.  Things that used to make me happy, make me smile, they bring me nothing right now.  Things that you brought into my life, are now like a weapon against my soul, what's left of it.

Solitude, that's what I feel.  I want to shout out to everyone what happened, but then I wouldn't be a decent man.  I wish I knew why, if there is a God, why he would allow me to feel what I did for you, when you apparently now would never feel for me.

There is another, but she is too far away.  I want to hold her, talk to her face to face.  Maybe then I wouldn't feel this anymore, maybe I could move on quickly.  But I also feel guilty, even though she knows, and has known since the beginning.  She's been through her own hell as well, her own trials, her own prison, similar to mine.  I know she feels very much the same as I do.  But she's not here, close enough for me to drive over and just hold her.

Solitude, it's all there apparently is.  I grow old and tired of it.  I don't want it.  The only solution that comes to mind is one that, in the past, was not allowed to me by fate, and now, I'm held back from out of fear, and out of uncertainty.

I don't know what to do....
Yeah.....

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Armando Perez
Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
United States
I've lived in Los Angeles my entire life, and don't think I'm gonna be leaving anytime soon.

I'm single, never really had a relationship. I guess I'm what you call a loner.

Currently I'm working trying to start in theatre. I'm going to school right now for it, and I've got a long way to go. I'm also working towards getting a real estate license here in California.

If you've seen my work, you can tell I'm somewhat of a kid and dreamer at heart. Always been a life long Trek fan, and that will never change.

Current Residence: Los Angeles, California
deviantWEAR sizing preference: 4x
Favourite genre of music: Rock
Operating System: Windows XP mainly...
MP3 player of choice: Microsoft Zune 120 gig
Personal Quote: I'm insane, not stupid.
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:iconmdbruffy:
mdbruffy Featured By Owner 6 hours ago
Thanks for adding "1701-B- Bridge texture test" to your collection. You'll see more of it in the next story.
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:icondaihak:
Daihak Featured By Owner 5 hours ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Can't wait!
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:iconjoe-roberts:
Joe-Roberts Featured By Owner 14 hours ago  Professional Digital Artist
 Thanks for faving :)
TARDIS? by Joe-Roberts 
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:icondaihak:
Daihak Featured By Owner 14 hours ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're very welcome.
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FrancyRhamira Featured By Owner 15 hours ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fav! :aww:
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Daihak Featured By Owner 14 hours ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're very welcome.
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:iconmdbruffy:
mdbruffy Featured By Owner 21 hours ago
Thanks for adding m"Romulan Bridge Updatew 4" to your collection. Glad you like how things are going.
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Daihak Featured By Owner 21 hours ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I do.  How long till your next installment? 
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mdbruffy Featured By Owner 10 hours ago
It'll be sometime in the first part of next year. I can't say exactly because I don't know what kind of problems I might run into bewteen n ow and then. Have you seen the Advanced Sheet?

NT 11 Advanced Sheet
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Daihak Featured By Owner 5 hours ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I have, and am eager to read it.
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