Been going through what I hope are the final motions of my own personal troubles as of late. While dealing with this, and also not being able to text my girl, I had kinda started to ignore what she might be going through.
Just recently I found out my girl has been going through troubles of her own, and I feel bad. Hell, I feel like I've been selfish. Granted, I've tried to get in touch with her a few times, and wondered when her phone will be turned back on, but still, I could have tried harder to get hold of her.
I didn't know she was going through a rough time herself. Granted, not much I can do, since she and I are in different states, but still, I could have at least lent a supportive ear, even if it was through email or messages here on DA.
I wish she and I had met sooner, and also wish she and I lived closer. Maybe then I wouldn't have gone through some of the hell I've been going through. It's not her fault. Might be mine, because I shouldn't have bothered with someone else, even though it was right before I met my girl. And even after I met my girl, I should have ignored the other person entirely, as if she never existed.
But now, I just wish I could be in touch with my girl more often. I miss talking to her, and wish I could be there for her.